It’s fall here. The trees are turning colors of smoldering embers and yellow squash. You can walk down the street and feel the crispness crinkle around you, and there is a smell, that can only be explained as “fall”. I’ve been rolling in angst this last week or two. Or months? Yes, months. There are […]
The last two months has been hard. Like running through liquid corn starch kind of hard. Like take another Xanax because we are in for one hell of a ride kind of hard. Life. Work. Stuff. It all plays a game with your mind, leaving you an emotional wreck. The crescendo happened last night though. […]
As one who has rewatched Grey’s Anatomy at least 12 times, and a huge lover of Snow Patrol music, I have listened to “Chasing Cars” a million times over my speaker. Today was the first time I listened to it with headphones. At 0:20 in, there is a tinkling sound that I had never heard […]
What do you do when you feel you are the odd man out? The weirdo. The person who says the off the wall thing that everyone raises an eyebrow at. What do you do when you aren’t anyone’s “I need to call!” person? Or if you are, it is only your spouse’s list? What do […]
It’s funny. How the perspective of one brother isn’t the same for the other. How the narrative was built for one, but not the other. How the truth is true, for one and not the other. When she met E, he was living with one foot in a world he loved and one foot in […]
The baskets of family photos sit in my office, carefully placed in ziplock bags and labeled. Grandma had the foresight to do this before her passing, and those photos have been passed down to me. They whisper. The last letter from her mother. Handwriting barely legible. Postmarked September 1980. I take the letter out, and […]
I miss my grandma. I say that almost every day, either out loud or in my head. I miss her.
For those that spend any amount of time with me, they will know that I need music playing to fill silence. I’ve written often here about my love for music, and how it brings a certain level of calm to my very hectic and loud brain. So, each year, when Spotify pushes out there That’s […]
It started simple enough. My nephew mentioned that he wanted me to get back into the family tree research. Sure, why not. It would be cool to see where we are from. I hopped into Ancestry.com, started building the tree, became super curious and said the unthinkable. “Why not have my DNA tested?”. For years, […]
Grandma passed away almost a year ago. With everything that I was going through last year, me sitting in the rubble of what was my life before cancer, I didn’t have the energy to grieve. I always thought I would break down, weep, scream, cry, when grandma passed. I did none of those things. I […]